‘The Vampire Diaries’ actress Claire Holt opens up about suffering miscarriage

Actress Claire Holt who has featured in The Vampire Diaries and The Originals speaks out about suffering a miscarriage. She was expecting a child with Andrew Joblon, her fiance. The 29-year-old lost her child last month.

The actress took to Instagram on Monday to share her story, she urges others who have suffered the same to speak out too. Holt wrote,”I took this photo 10 days ago, as I waited for surgery after my sweet little baby lost its heartbeat. I sent it to my fiance in the waiting room to show him that I was okay. I wasn’t,” she wrote, sharing a photograph of herself in hospital clothes and showing a thumbs up. I’ve never felt more broken in my life. I debated sharing this so soon and I’m still frightened about making such a private struggle public, but I’m doing it anyway because it’s important. After my D & C (Dilation and curettage), I spent hours on the internet searching for women who had been through it. I was desperate to find someone, anyone, who could relate to what I was feeling.Someone to tell me that the depression and hopelessness were normal. That it wasn’t my fault. That I wasn’t broken forever,” she continued.

I took this photo 10 days ago, as I waited for surgery after my sweet little baby lost its heartbeat. I sent it to my fiancé in the waiting room to show him that I was ok. I wasn’t. I’ve never felt more broken in my life. I debated sharing this so soon and I’m still frightened about making such a private struggle public, but I’m doing it anyway because it’s important. After my D & C, I spent hours on the internet searching for women who had been through it. I was desperate to find someone, anyone, who could relate to what I was feeling. Someone to tell me that the depression and hopelessness were normal. That it wasn’t my fault. That I wasn’t broken forever. I found a community of women who shared my exact experience. Who were open and vulnerable about miscarriage, something that isn’t often or openly discussed. It breaks my heart to think that losing a baby feels like something we have to keep to ourselves. Why is it any different than the death of a loved one? How is it any less meaningful? Here is what I have learned as I begin to crawl out of the dark hole: support is everything. I could not have survived this without the unconditional love of my partner. Despite his pain, he was my rock and my safety net. I will never know how to thank him. I also found that opening up to people is crucial. As soon as I told my story, almost everyone I spoke to told me theirs – their own, their wife’s, their sister’s. So many people go through it and understand the breadth of pain, yet so few people talk about it. Finally, I want to share a blog post that resonated with every part of me. You can find the link in my bio, @leandramcohen of @manrepeller articulates the emotional rollercoaster with an eloquence that I could never possess. To anyone out there who has been through a miscarriage, I understand you. I share every bit of your pain and you are not alone. Please be kind to yourself and I hope that you will be comfortable sharing your story too.

A post shared by Claire Holt (@claireholt) on Mar 4, 2018 at 3:52pm PST

Later, Claire Holt thanked everyone who stayed by her side in this phase,”This is how I spent the last two days. I cannot tell you how much your beautiful words of support and love mean to me. The shared stories of loss. The women and men who opened up to show me that I wasn’t alone. I want to thank each and every one of you from the bottom of my heart. I’m so inspired by the goodness in people. The kindness. The world needs it now more than ever and I will do my best to pay that forward. Let’s always be honest and courageous. Don’t be afraid to speak up – I got your back. Thank you for having mine”

This is how I spent the last two days. I cannot tell you how much your beautiful words of support and love mean to me. The shared stories of loss. The women and men who opened up to show me that I wasn’t alone. I want to thank each and every one of you from the bottom of my heart. I’m so inspired by the goodness in people. The kindness. The world needs it now more than ever and I will do my best to pay that forward. Let’s always be honest and courageous. Don’t be afraid to speak up – I got your back. Thank you for having mine ❤

A post shared by Claire Holt (@claireholt) on Mar 6, 2018 at 9:11am PST

The actress posted this thanking note on Instagram.